Am I Wrong
I keep thinking and think again whether I am the wrong one.
Don't know how to start ranting, because everything feels so wrong. I've been at the university for two years and I know very well each of my classmates, how they behave, their personalities, capabilities and so on.
Sometimes I wanna be like them, being free, they seem to be so carefree, maybe they are type B person in handling stress I guess but at the end of the day, they will disturb type A person which is me. If you are wondering what I'm talking about, actually I'm referring to 'Organizational Behaviour' subject in the chapter of stress management. There are two types of a person which A and B. They have different reactions on stress issue 💢.
Type A person will be aggressive, competitive, set high standards and put themselves under constant time pressures. Nak senang cerita, we always react cepat dengan sesuatu, we want everything to be finished not only in shortest time but with perfection or something we do must reach the standard.
While type B person is more relaxed and easygoing. They able to relax without having any guilt, they are more relaxed regarding time pressures and so they are less prone to have problems relating to stress. Since they very contradict me, so I always find it is hard for me to keep up with my work when it comes to group task.
Enough with that, let me tell you another case. Yes! I'm very annoyed if someone loves to ask me a nonsense questions. Hey, come on! Don't ask me why we need to use this or that formula to solve the question 💆 and please don't ask me why the formula is like that 😶 I don't have any answer for that you know 😮 I'm not a lecturer and I guess even the lecturer did not have the answer 😹
I got no problems at all if you want me to help you solve the question because both of us can gain something at least but, I'm not available to help you 24 hours okay 😰 please don't call or WhatsApp me after twelve because I want to rest 😵 seriously rasa nak mengamuk je tidur terganggu sebab orang call 🙇 jinjja mianhae because I ignored the incoming call 😣
My feelings already messed up you know, sometimes I curious did my classmate are aware or not their goals when they enter the university, they just like to have fun and seem to have less concern on their studies. Then when it comes to the week of final exam yeahh they will show the world how barai they are 🙍 I hope you guys can change and be matured since next semester is the last one. Please don't disturb the other classmates macam nenek saya selalu pesan "Jangan bila nak terbuang air besar baru sibuk nak gali lubang". Begitulah jua dengan belajar, jangan sampai di saat esok nak sit for final, that night baru realise there's still a lot of exercises need to be done and more chapters need to be revised.
I beg for your forgiveness since sometimes I'm being selfish. I feel wrong too, but 😞 I'm a student too 🙋 I want to survive too, I need to maintain my pointer too, what else eh
Do you think they should blame me if I can't help them?
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hahaha you're so funny. i know your feeling. i have to encounter such things too sometimes. i guess life in university, lebih kurang sama je kan.
ReplyDeletefor me, i think sometimes you have to be selfish too. some people just come to us when they need something so it is okay if we do not entertain them always, hahaha.
lega sikit after read your comments, kalau tak rasa serba salah ja sebab entah lah i got no reasons why i feel like that T_T
DeleteI used to be type A person masa first sem of degree tapi I mengalami stress yg agak serious sebab study hard sangat. Nasib tak depression haha. But for second sem I lebih relax and study bila I rasa nak study. Kekadang ambil sambil lewa sebab melepak haha but still assignment semua hantar on time and test & quiz semua okay.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, kekadang kita kena jadi selfish. Bila kerja dalam group, kita ada hak nak marah kalau kerja tak bergerak. Okay tu je, peace ^^
thanks for the words :)
Deletedont worry. bukan senang nak puaskan hati semua org. so lek lek je. hiks
ReplyDeletehaha.. masing-masing ada cara study yang berbeza. Sometimes kita perlu selfish dan mana mampu kita bantu kita bantu. Just orang yang bertanya perlulah consider masa kita juga. btw goodluck in your study
ReplyDeletethanks a lot awak ^^
DeleteStay strong anis! I know university life is hard. Sometime be selfish a little bit hahahha macam kejam tapi tak lah. its normal in life
ReplyDeletenormal but makes me feel guilty so much ,_,
Deletetrueee, sometimes there are some people that cant stand on their own feet. kalau nak suruh kita tolong boleh je, tapi janganlah nampak sampai takde usaha. tambah lagi, ada yang esok nak exam pastu baru nak suruh kita ajar 😭
ReplyDeleteorang yg macam tu lah buat anis macam geram pun ada, bukan taknak tolong tapi taktau apa masalah dia sebenarnya
Deletehahahaha sama lah, bila buat group assignment asyik kita je yang lead sebab nak hantar cepat, tak suka bertangguh, tapi at the same time rasa macam kuat mengarah pun ada. Pelik macam mana diorang boleh rilek rilek. Tapi tak tau lah macam tak boleh nak salahkan diorang sebab lain orang lain cara kan. So, yeah related sangat ;)
ReplyDeleteyess definitely. idk how other people ada rasa nak bertangguh bila kerja tu melibatkan orang lain sama :')
Deletesuddenly Nico & Vinz - Am I Wrong plays in my mind hehe
ReplyDeleteThank you for dropping your thoughts and have a nice day! 😉